Tuesday, January 24, 2017

Two sweet!


We just finished celebrating Emmalyn's 2nd birthday this past week.



I'm having a hard time not thinking of which heart craft I want to make for her party anymore. Instead it's that dull stage of winter and I'm reflecting about how my baby got to be TWO already!? Can we go back to 15 months and freeze that age for a while? I know that the ultimate goal is to raise them up and send them off but it’s soooo hard. Especially when they’re transitioning from sweet baby to independent, opinionated toddler. (I don't think Andrew and I produce the submissive type) She has been a joy-baby to love and knowing that she’s more than likely our last child makes her exit from baby stage bittersweet. At least she’s not leaving for college tomorrow… even though I might wish that during these next 2 years, ha. Hopefully her toddler years won’t be too terrible.

For now she's still my little baby-toddler and I get to see the amazing ways she is learning. Just over the past few months her personality has really started coming out. The girl can be a little comedienne when she wants to be. Her expressions are so funny. She loves repeating funny words Addie says like poot. She still loves her food. She has tasted her fair share of junk food from big sis so the “healthy” foods aren’t as easy to get her to eat. She still will eat any fruit and tries most vegetables.

Language has really taken off lately. She surprises me daily with a new word she can say. She loves reading books with me and helping with some of the words she remembers. (Llama llama red pajama, brown bear) She’ll say a handful of sentences like “I want to go” or “I want that”. Most involve wanting something ;). She’s also a good little singer when I sing songs to her. She’ll join in on Twinkle Twinkle little star, the wheels on the bus, God is so Good, and a few others. She loves to boogie with Addie to music as well. I think she has some natural rhythm. She might want to start dance class sooner than Addie did. Girl can do some yoga too! She has this one pose where she sticks her hands on the ground and one foot in the air. It’s so cute and normally gets lots of applause…hence why she loves to do it when people are around, especially grandparents.

All of a sudden, she’s become picky about her bedtime routine. She fights sitting in the rocking chair and reading a book because she knows that sleep comes shortly after. She’ll demand her water or baby or pillow or blankie and is super picky about her book selection once we get to that stage too. After we read the book, I rock her a couple minutes without the light on (because I still love my cuddles with her!) and then lay her in her crib. EVERY night she’ll cry for about 10 minutes. I am in NO RUSH to move her to a big girl bed anytime soon. So far she hasn’t tried to climb out yet. She still demands that MOMMY puts her to sleep (WHICH I LOVE) but will easily go to sleep with Daddy if I’m not around. I can tell that she’s becoming less of a mommy’s girl lately.

She and Addie sometimes play well together these days. Occasionally they can get really rough with each other. Normally Emme ends up in tears. Addie has a hard time accepting that Emme has a real opinion about her toys and is not afraid to let everyone know. However, most of the time Emme will just play with whatever scrap toys Addie has thrown to the side. Lately she’s shown interest in baby dolls. She enjoys wrapping them up in blankets and feeding them. She also likes puzzles and cutting apart fruit with a fake knife.

When the sisters aren’t fighting they LOVE being around each other and sit together at chapel in school. Addie will hold Emme’s hand and walk her into school most days. It’s a very “frenemy” kind of situation.

I thought Emme was going to be super easy-going but now I’m not so sure. Her opinions from what book we read to the shows we watch (BARNEY) are becoming louder. She still has a very sweet heart and loving personality though. She’s a great hugger, kisser, and cuddler. She’ll pat the couch to ask you to come sit down beside her.

Potty training has officially begun too. She does well most of the time. She likes to wear her big girl panties but normally has 1-2 accidents in them. She’s pooped on the potty a handful of times. If you ask her to go pee on the potty she’ll quickly say “NO” but by the time she’s sat down on it she normally complies and goes. She likes to use the big potty some too. I would hard-core go straight to panties but I hate to send her to school and make her teacher do all that extra work. (same for Nana… I don’t think she’s ready yet ;) For now we just are trying to do panties when I’m home. It somewhat breaks my heart to see her booty in big girl undies but when I think of the money we will save I suddenly feel better.
I'm trying to live in the present and not think too hard about her leaving babyhood behind (key word: try). For now, we are having so much fun with her and loving being her parents. We pray she will keep her silliness and sweetness. Thank you GOD for our Emmalyn Kate!!!

Monday, January 23, 2017

HOPE


(Thanks to Jody Vickery and Twickenham for this inspiring lesson!)
"In anxiety, we anticipate the possibility of danger, in hope we anticipate possible deliverance" Jurgen Moltmann
God called Abraham to leave behind everything he knew to follow Him. And he did. Expecting God's promises he ended up in a land of famine. (Sound like anything in your life?)
Anticipating danger, in fear, he devised a plan. (Again, does this sound like anything you've done?)He went to Egypt and coerced his beautiful bride into presenting herself as his sister. Pharaoh then took her as his wife and Abraham became a wealthy man. Sounds nice huh? Well, he eventually was found out and they were forced to leave. Abraham started out on a journey towards something and now found himself running from something. He started out hopeful but soon acted out of fear. He panicked, as we all do. 
What good comes from acting out of a place of fear?

God knows that He's got us and everything will be ok, eventually. Unfortunately, we can’t see when/how He's going to deliver us or always believe that He can or will.
Why would God deliver me when I’ve been so unfaithful and selfish and will his deliverance truly be enough? We then bundle up in our coat of fear and hesitation and stagnation. We love a little less and silence our God-given dreams because we think we will stay comfortable and protected. How can we bear our naked selves in hope when the fear of being let down is looming over us?

WE WILL BE LET DOWN, it's inevitable. People will wound us, our health will fail, money will come and go, our houses will get old. Our president is not who we want it to be. 

HOWEVER, God offers us a slew of promises that will NEVER let us down. 
HE WILL ALWAYS LOVE US.
HE WILL ALWAYS FORGIVE US.
HE WILL ALWAYS HEAL US.

We 100%, unashamedly can cast our hope on Him without fear. This won’t promise us a comfortable life, but it does promise us a loved, forgiven, ETERNAL life.

Should we then place no hope in things of Earth? Forget people. They certainly are not God and will hurt me. Why take care of my body if it’s going to fail me? Why have dreams for my children? Would living that way really be better? Being alone, miserable, and afraid with a whole bunch of regret. That doesn't sound very delightful.
Instead, what if at the end we get to say "well at least I gave everything I could!". Will loving ever produce regret? After my first fiancĂ©e left 3 months before our wedding, I wished I wouldn't have ever loved him. But if I didn't, I wouldn't have had a first love. I wouldn't have learned more about love. I wouldn't have found my next loves.


If we love as Jesus did, we have nothing to fear...

Perfect love casts out fear.

What is perfect love? Loving despite the risk. Think putting all your money into something with the risk of ZERO return on investment.

Terrible business plan but fulfilling life plan.

 Does God love us first without knowing if we will love Him back?

Yes, yet he loves us fully knowing that we will hurt him over and over and over again. That's the chance He takes because He tells us WE ARE WORTH THE RISK.

"While we were still sinners, God died for us."
Loving and giving of ourselves for no selfish gain or with no expectation is how we walk as God’s children. It is how we live out Jesus in us. It is where we find peace….joy… HOPE.

"We rejoice in suffering because suffering produces perseverance.  Perseverance, character, and character, HOPE. AND HOPE WILL NEVER DISAPPOINT." (Romans 5:3-5) What is that hope? GOD. Through every hurt we face, there is God.

 We will be let down, but God picks us up and binds us back together. Let’s walk in hope, not fear.